My personal hell
Joined on 9/23/13
Posted by RayLeeWorld - 2 weeks ago
Youtube is crapping on me for uploading this vid on their website, so I uploaded it on my Dailymotion account (I can't be able to embed it since Newgrounds doesn't allow it). So yeah, I guess you could say I created an account there to prevent any videos from being removed on Youtube.
Anyways, enjoy this dumb meme I made.
Posted by RayLeeWorld - May 11th, 2019
Currently, the sound on my computer hasn't been doing so well, mainly due to the fact that the soundcard has busted. Thankfully, I recently bought myself a USB soundcard to help regain the sound on my computer, and whaddya know, it worked like a charm! It's good to have sound on my computer once again. So I guess now I can be able to make computers again. We'll see.
Posted by RayLeeWorld - May 7th, 2019
Normally I don't make a journal/news post telling my thoughts on a movie before, but what the hell! I liked this so much that it guaranteed a journal/news post, so why not? So with that outta the way, Here goes! And don't worry, I won't spoil anything here if you haven't seen the movie yet, which i'm sure most people have already. (Also, I probably should've made this post earlier, but I didn't have the time to do so before, so whatever)
So yeah, I like Endgame. In fact, I love it! It was insane(possibly more insane than Infinity War) and so jam packed, I had to go see it three times! No joke! This is without a doubt one of Marvel's best films, and without a doubt, one of the best superhero films all of time. However, like any movie, it isn't perfect. It has flaws. In fact, a lot of the flaws in the movie make it less magnificent than Infinity War, like the story and the pacing being kind messy, a couple plot holes here and there, and some of the choices made in this film aren't spectacular. But they're all forgivable, and don't take away from a whole lot from the movie, especially since this is basically the end of the Infinity Saga and one last time for the OG Avengers to shine. Plus, the final act is one of the best final acts of any superhero film and it definitely pays off.
Also, i'm gonna admit, I've never been a big fan of the MCU, and haven't watched all of their movies. But over time, I've slowly grown to like it, and gained a fair amount of info of the franchise before watching Infinity War. So after watching Endgame, I think I can it's safe to say that Marvel has officially won me over. While Infinity war was a better movie, I enjoyed Endgame a lot more; This isn't just a movie, it's an experience. One that took 22 movies and 11 years to get to, and it delivered, with a satisfying conclusion to cap off the saga. And it's one of the best experiences I've ever had in theaters.
At this point, i'm looking forward to what Marvel will be doing after Endgame. Yeah, Marvel ain't gonna stop making movies any time soon, but I think they wanna let people know that this movie not only represents the end of an era, but the beginning of a new one, as well (At least that's how I see it). And I feel things are going to get a lot more interesting with the franchise moving forward.
And one last thing, but I hope that Endgame can be able to get an Oscar nomination for Best Picture. I think it deserves it (especially after Infinity war not being able to nab one), not just because it's a great movie, but also because it's part of a movie series that has build up to grand finale for more than decade and pull it off miraculously. That's quite an achievement, if ya ask me. Hell, there might even be a decent chance it could win it. I mean, if Return Of The King was able to win for Best picture, so could Endgame.
That's all for now. Cheers.
Posted by RayLeeWorld - April 25th, 2019
TL;DR: Being a furry has done more bad than good for me and i'm leaving the furry community because of it.
It's been a kind of a while since I've done a news post, but this is kind of important, so I got a reason to make one.
Anyways, I've been doing some thinking recently, but I've decided that i'm no longer going to be part of the furry community anymore. Yeah, I'm a furry, or at least I was one. So you might be wondering why I'm making this kind of decision? Well, it's kind of a long story, but i'll try and make it short and sweet.
I don't wanna get too personal, but I lived in an abusive household for much of my life, and when I was in my early teens, using the internet was basically a form of escapism from my crappy life, and I was became part of the furry community around that time, thinking it would help feel better about myself. So basically, I've been a furry since I was 13 or 14. I'm 22 right now, so it's been a long while.
But my time in the furry community was anything but amazing, and I contribute that to just how awful the community is (It's basically become the norm at this point). And considering how young and naive I was when I joined the community, I feel like overtime I was slowly engulfed by all the toxicity it's known for, and became a worse person out of it. I ended up doing a lot of awful shit online, much of which was involved in the furry community. I’m not gonna go over everything that happened during my time there, since a lot of it is pretty personal (and i'm not very proud of sharing it), but let’s just say I ended up scaring away or pissing off a lot people, friends of mine have leaving me, and have even created a bad reputation of myself among people online. My time there has brought more joy than misery to me, and it's been slowly ruining my life online.
And Honestly, I also blame myself for this, because I should’ve done something about it years ago but I never did. I guess because of my crappy life, I thought I was given a free pass to act like the worst person possible, and the furry community happened to be the perfect hotspot for that. And I know my problems are no excuse for my actions, since it has bitten me in the ass many times.
So now that i’m more older and wiser, I believe the best choice is to leave the furry community once and for all. However, i’m not going to stop drawing anthro art, because believe or not, you don’t have have to be a furry to anthro art (I know, shocking, huh?), but I wanna try and draw more non-anthro art. Plus, drawing anthro art has always been more of simple interest of mine than something to cater to furries. Also, I won’t stop talking to whatever friends I have (mainly online) who are furries, but I want to make more non-furry friends, as well. I just don’t really wanna be involved in the community anymore. It can corrupt the most vulnerable people, and I just happened to be one of them, unfortunately.
I mean, don’t get me wrong, I may always be a cynical asshole forever, since that's my nature, but at the very least not being such a super toxic furry will do some good for me in life, hopefully.
So, I guess that's all I have to say for now. I hope ya'll can understand, especially since I tried making this post this as clear as possible, without giving away too much info that may be too much to share here. And pardon me if I sounded harsh, but I needed to get this outta my system. I also feel sorry for the more sane furries that have to deal with the mess of the community they're in, and I wish the best for them.
All in all, that is all. I'm outta here.
Posted by RayLeeWorld - February 9th, 2019