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Posted by RayLeeWorld - September 26th, 2015


And it ain’t good, either. Why? Well, because it involves me probably leaving DA…for good. And who knows, maybe even the whole internet.

Reason? Well then, sit down and lemme tell ya.

Also, TL;DR ahead, just in case.

Anyways, the issue i’m dealing with that may make me leave here involves a well-known artist known as Andrew Dickman(he has an account here: ). The guy is a great artist and all, so what got me to make an issue outta him, well, read this first in order for you to understand:  http://rayleeman.deviantart.com/journal/Oh-boy-536232799

Done reading it? Good. Now you might be wondering if this whole thing about me creating a character similar to AWD’s, well, I decided to give you an email that I gave to him regarding the issue, here it is:

(Email I sent to AWD)

“Hi Andy, it’s me again. I know it’s been a few months now since our convolution online and it’s been pretty rough between us lately over our OC’s and what not. And trust me, I was still upset even when I created my Dixie character. Hell, sometimes, I always curse under my breath about Pixels, and sometimes I had thoughts that, well, you probably don’t wanna know.

But I decided that it’s about time to come clean and tell you the truth. Because that whole thing about me creating a character similar to Pixels five years ago was all made up. Yeah, that’s right, I made it up. I never actually created a character similar to your bunny OC five years back. Yeah, you heard me right, I tried to take away your bunny OC for my own purposes. So my Dixie character is just a rip-off and not a retool of a character I created five years back(Which I hope explains why the whole situation seemed too coincidental). So yeah, i’m a fucking theif! There, I said it!

BUT, I didn’t try steal Pixels away from you not because I was trying to fuck with you. Oh no, it something more personal, and probably a little creepy(I can be creepy at times, sorry). The reason I tried to take her away from you is because I love her. No, literally, I do. Like, a lot! I Love her like if she was my own child.

Now you might be saying "But pixels is just a drawing”, and you’re right. But it’s more that that. I love her not only because she’s simply a cartoon(and to an extent, her design), but it’s also because of the emotion that make feel attached to her. I have feelings for this character, like if she was real.
It’s like how you would feel attached to a character from a tv show, comic book, video game, ect. You have feelings for a certain character because of what they’re personality/emotions are. And even though i’m not a gamer, there’s something about her that makes me feel attracted to her. I guess it’s ‘cause she looks so happy and care-free, and that’s something I can relate to.

Why? Maybe it has to do with my depression. Yeah, that’s right. I’m depressed. And the reason is due to my very rough childhood. If you don’t know what i’m talking about, here’s a link for you to know:http://forum.deviantart.com/community/life/2063308/ (come back when you’re done reading it)

(NOTE: The same goes to you too, whoever’s reading this journal.)

If you read what’s on the link, now you’ll know why i’m so depressed. But that was a few months back. Thankfully, I have been getting some help recently, but I still have a long way to go.

Anyways, you should be glad that you at least lived a better life than I did. I would like to be in your shoes and see what’s it like being a great artist like you, and creating such wonderful characters like Pixels, and have a much better life like yours. I’m sorry if this is sounding too weird for you, but it’s true.  You created characters that were better and more original than mine. I mean, I created a character that looks WAY too similar to that Captain Rainbow(www.google.com.mx/imgres?imgur…) guy(don’t ask how I found out), and you made created characters that, while taking influence, at least had more originality than mine.

So yeah, right now you might hate me more and thinking i’m nothing but a lonlely, depressed, and butthurt weirdo loser who can’t making anything good and  original and should quit on art, leave the internet for good, drop out of college, and spend the rest of life making a living off of flipping burgers.

If that’s what you think, than good! Because I deserve that life, I don’t deserve another chance. I fucked up and now you’re probably disgusted with me(or in that case, a lot more!).

And in case you’re wondering, i’m actually leaving Deviantart sometime this week, so I might as well start leaving every other site account I have online as well. I bet you’ll be a lot happier about me leaving the web and cheering for it.

All in all, you deserve better as an artist. I don’t.

I hope you understood.

-Ray

P.S. You probably don’t wanna bother responding to this message, so don’t do it if you don’t want to. I understand.“


So, there you have it, folks. And I understand that rough childhood and/or depression won’t excuse for what i’ve done to Andy, but again, i’m glad at least i’m getting some help in the meantime. But nonetless, it’s too late now. There’s no way I can convince AWD to give me another chance. I fucked up, and I deserve being hated by everyone else. So, all in all, I might as well leave DA, and possibly the rest of the internet as well.

But before I do, I must finish a commission and trade first before leaving(or maybe I might leave now, and give the the people their commision and trade after), and after that, i’ll depart from this website and the rest of my other accounts on other sites online. I hope AWD will be really happy after this.

I might as well give up my dreams while i’m at it. After all, i’m no good being an artist, especially one who can make original content.

I know i’m making a big deal outta this, but the internet can be unforgiving. So why bother giving another chance?

In the end, I will be leaving very soon. For now, i’m going to bed.

So yeah, goodbye forever, maybe.

-Ray

P.S. He hasn’t replied to my email yet, so he probably doesn’t care anymore.


Posted by RayLeeWorld - September 4th, 2015


Well, it's been longs since i've done a journal before. But anyways, here is some news related to my work:

My Spectrum Man Comic...

Yes, A few months ago, I said that I lost interest in making my SM webcomic, and instead planned it on being a cartoon or a video game, but now, i'm thinking of going back to making it a comic again. But instead of making it a webcomic, i'm going to make it into a full blown comic book instead. It may take a little while to do that, but i'm gonna try and see if that works. Besides, i'm already working on a rough draft for the comic, so wish me luck!

Character Sale...

That's right, people, i'm gonna be doing a character sale. As for sketch commissions, I'll have to put those on hold for now, so I won't have to put with too much work, not too mention i'm going to college at the moment. Also, i'm a little low on cash right now, and I have a job at the moment(i'm trying to look for one) so this could be a better and perhaps a more easier way to make some money at least. Also, the price for the characters will be around $10 dollars, so hopefully, it'll worth enough for people who can't afford something that costs a hundred dollars and what not.

Getting help...

Another thing, and it isn't art-related, so don't read it if it doesn't interest you, but for those who have read this: http://forum.deviantart.com/community/life/2063308/, then I'm happy to say that I have recently gotten some help last week. I'm still going today, and I hope everything will go alright and I can be able to feel much better now. I'm still depressed though(And I could very well be suffering from PTSD), but I just have to continue getting help so I could finally be able to move on with my life(And out of my dad's house, hopefully(once I could be able to get a job, though)). So wish me luck on that, too!

Well, that's all the news I have for now. I might be doing doing something related to Halloween, maybe, but we'll see. Anyways, Catch you later!

-Ray


Posted by RayLeeWorld - July 11th, 2015


That's right, my art has been scouted once more! I know it's not such a big deal, but i'm glad I got scouted ever since i've become unscouted by some clowns a few months ago.

So i'd like to give kudos to Exedor, who was the one who scouted my art, I dunno why, but my guess is that he likes my art, and if that's the case, Then I'd like to thank him for that! Really!

Anyways, that's all for now!

Cheers!


Posted by RayLeeWorld - June 30th, 2015


Yeah, this officially the logo for my new webcomic "Charlie Campbell 'N friends." The comic will star the titular character Charlie: http://rayleeman.deviantart.com/art/It-s-charlie-447858717

Also, the comic will be done in comic strip format. As for the panels, I'm going along the lines of 4-6(And sometimes one, maybe).

And you might be wondering what the comic(or at least the plot synopsis) is gonna be about. Well, I can't tell you just yet. But I will be making a journal post tommorow. In the meantime, enjoy the logo!

Cheers!

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Posted by RayLeeWorld - June 22nd, 2015


...About my bunny OC's name. So once again, i'm changing it to Dixie. I feel it's more well than Penelope. Besides, it's cuter. So yeah.

That's all for now, later!


Posted by RayLeeWorld - June 21st, 2015


So recently, I've seen that some people have been confusing my new character Bonnie with the other Bonnie from FNAF series. And I can see why, as they have some similarities to each other. So I decided that the best way to avoid anymore confusion is by changing the name of my character, and hope no one will get confused that much anymore.

So as of now, Her name will be changed to Penelope, or Penny for short. Hopefully it's a much better name, and I also hope no one will be as confused as much anymore.

That's all for now. Later.


Posted by RayLeeWorld - June 8th, 2015


Hey everyone. You might be wondering why I haven't been updating last Saturday. Well, that's because i'm starting to have second thoughts on my Spectrum Man comic.

In other words, I feel like somehow, it feels too much to be a webcomic. I know it's only seven pages, but honestly, the story that I've come up so far(which will be kept secret for the most part(don't ask)) feels like it can be more than just a simple webcomic. I dunno what you think, but that's just me.

So, you might be thinking, what will be of Spectrum man then. Well, there's two options I have. One, it could be an animated series, and the other would be a video game(an RPG-styled game at that).

Now, does that mean i'm gonna quit making webcomics now. Well, not really. I might take a little break from making them, but i'm not giving them up completely. In fact, I have another idea for that could be good enough for a webcomic, perhaps a comic strip at that, and a slice-of-life one as well, like my Kneonn J comic. Though, I don't think i'll be reviving that anytime soon, since i've lost interest in it.

Anyways, the world of Spectrum Man will not die just yet, as I hope to bring him in another form of medium.(Like the ones I just mentioned in the third paragraph).

So anyways, stick around, because a new webcomic may be heading your way soon(and hopefully, it will last longer. [:P] ), and Spectrum Man may be coming back as cartoon or video game!

For now, I will relax and try to enjoy the rest of my summer as much as I can.

Cheers!


Posted by RayLeeWorld - May 29th, 2015


I can't believe this happened. If you don't know what i'm talking about, well, lemme explain then. Also, this might be a long one, so yeah, I apologize if you're not used to reading long posts and what not. Now that that's outta the way, let's get started.

See, if you didn't know, I first came to DA in 2010, but it was a different account and not this one. The account was called "lalalal1234"(Just a random name, nothing much) and I didn't do much back there. However, in september of 2010, I created a random character in that account, which was this one:

lalalal1234.deviantart.com/art/chubby-blue-chibi-bunny-girl-177716268

This was the first drawing I posted in my old account, and it was one of the first time I drew a chubby anthro girl, and one of the fewest times I drew a chibi character.

But as time went on, I slowly forgot about her as I started creating other characters and not to mention I had other things to care of, like school and what not.

Anyways, A few weeks ago, I planned on reviving that character until I was shocked to see a character that looks remotely similar to mine!

http://awdplace.tumblr.com/post/113386944445/dedoarts-bunny-butts-fanart-of-andrew-dickman

Yes, I was pretty baffled to see that there was another OC that looked almost exactly like mine. And it seems creepy in a way as well, 'cause I was creeped out when I saw this. I was creeped out and shocked at the same time!

So I decided to see if this Pixels OC was real, and sadly, it was. Because of this, I began to lose hope on my character, as I thought that if I tried to revive her, people will think i'm some kind of theif, even though I have proof to show i'm not. And I knew that Dickman couldn't have possibly stole my character, So I figured this was all a coincidence. But just to make sure, I decided to tell him the situation, so I contacted him through G-mail.

So, I talked to him about how we can handle the situation and all, and it didn't go so well. But instead of telling you everything since it would kind of take a long time to do so, I thought it would be best to send you some images of our conversation, if you'd like that.

These links are all the screenshots I've taken on the conversation I had with the person about our OC's.

http://imgur.com/oHOlAPY

http://imgur.com/pT2Ijjs

http://imgur.com/p3tG0tD

http://imgur.com/nAUoHf9

http://imgur.com/JpAByW4

http://imgur.com/ty9PNtP

http://imgur.com/whc46ED


Sorry if this is too much for you to read. Also, some of my replies may sound a little exaggerated, and possibly somewhat threatening at some point, even though it was never my intention to threaten him.

And now that I hope you read everything from the links I gave you, I hope you understand what i'm talking about. Look, I know I acted a little immature(or childish, if you're very judgmental) in certain parts of our conversation, but I tired my best to sound as respectful and well spoken as possible. And like I said, I might have exaggerated a little here and there, but I tend to exaggerate at times, usually when i'm frustrated and what not, which explains what I just told you now.

I understand this whole situation was purely coincidental(a little TOO coincidental, I might say), but I still think that it's unfair that this guy created something similar that I have done five years ago. And I know it seems unfair to him, since he's apperantely fond of her character. Well, you know, i've been growing fond of my own OC as well, and I wanna make up for lost time. I wanna do much more with my bunny character that I never could be able to back then.(And I hope to so the same with my other characters as well.)

So, does that mean i'm gonna cry like a baby, give up on my old character, and take a break from drawing for a whole year? Nope. Hell no. Sorry, But I ain't giving up so easily. I'm not gonna be taking no for an answer for this. And if you think you can accuse me of being a theif, that's you're wrong, because i'm sure you're smart enough to know that I posted a link in the third paragraph to let you know I have proof.

And no, this is not a joke, i'm not a troll, i'm being serious people. This actually happened. So, if you read the conversation screenshots on the seven links, I'm sure you'll know now that the guy rejected my offer of dealing the situation with our characters so we could fix it and come to friendly terms in one way or another. But he didn't want to, and that's fine by me. But like I said before, i'm not giving up so easily, so that means from now on, I will ignore him and everything about his character and his work, and do my own thing with my character.

Look, the guy is a great artist, he makes cool art, and I like his art(hell, his work was a reason that got me to improve on my art, and I even made some fan art for him before), but I didn't like him how he tried to shun me down simply because I wanted to bring back a character from the dead who looks remotely similar to his. And honestly, I don't trust him him anymore, nor do I no longer like him either. I don't wanna be the bad guy here, but I he left me no choice now, but that's just me.

So, all in all, screw this guy! I wanna move on, but I'm not willing to change my OC, I made up my mind. She's fine the way she is(Well, maybe I could change her a little, but not too much). And if he doesn't like that, well that's too bad for him then. That's his problem not mine. I got proof, and he doesn't.(I don't have to tell you why because you probably know by now. [:P] )

This will be the last time I will ever mention about this guy or anything about him or related to him. Like I said, from now on, I will ignore him and not care about anything about what he says about him or his character(s). And if you don't like that, then that's not my problem, so don't bother doing anything, don't try to stop me or even screw with me, I will just ignore you. If you try to do anything bad about my character(or any of my other characters), then I will ignore that as well.

But, if you even bother trying to accuse me of being a thief or anything like that, I will not hesitate to block you, report you to the admins and get you banned. Even if you're just doing it to fuck with me, I don't care, I will do it anyways.

It's my art. My characters. My rules. I'll do whatever the hell I want and no one can stop me!

That is all. And now will you excuse me, i'm gonna go relax for a little while. [:P]

P.S. Stay tuned for more of my bunny OC, hopefully! BTW, in case you're curious who that person is that i'm talking about, it's Andrew Dickman. I know i'm probably not suppose to mention names, but I think the links already gave it away.

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Over and out.


Posted by RayLeeWorld - May 24th, 2015


...I'm gonna start on page 8 all over again.

And it's mainly because I dislike certain aspects of the page, including the look of the car, which i'm gonna retool into a different car. The only good thing I find in the page is the background in the first panel, so im keeping that one at least.

Anyways, sorry if you're gonna hafta wait longer. I'll re-work on page 8 ASAP!


Posted by RayLeeWorld - May 18th, 2015


My god, this is probably the longest time it has taken me to finish up a page for my comic! But i'm about 85% percent done with page 8, so I hope I can be able to finish it this Saturday or so.